RELEASED

Sometimes we arrive at the edge of a road to which we can either fall off or turn – right or left.

It is at this time, most of us do nothing.

We refuse to make a decision one way or the other and we remain in a perpetual state of stagnation until an uninvited force pushes us; tumbling over the edge.

We spend the next phase of our life, usually years, trying to get back to the top, hoping for another opportunity to make a choice – of our own free will.

There may be many reasons why we refuse to make a choice on which way to travel when we find ourselves at Life’s Crossroad.  But, I’m willing to bet that for most of us (and certainly for me) fear is the culprit.

So, here I stand.

Praying for the answer and asking for guidance; listening to the wind for a hint.  Meditating and calling up that place within that I trust so much to just thrust me one way or the other so that I am not to blame for whatever the result may be.

As I face oblivion and darkness, I am reminded of the struggles I’ve been thru and left on the road behind me.  I am strengthened by the victories.  I am stunned by the choices I’ve made that I didn’t realize would lead me to this place.

With planted feet, I am reminded that I claim a powerful bond with the Most High.  I regularly give him glory and praise and outwardly profess my love and commitment to his will.

But I refuse to make a step.

I convince myself that this place isn’t so bad.  Although with each passing day, I find myself sinking lower and lower into the sand of complacency.

Where is my faith?

Why have I given my purpose, my journey, my life over to the power of an unseen force?

Why am I waiting for another person to okay my decision to make a move?

Why do I not trusting what my Father has already promised me?

Why I am being lead by flesh and not by faith?

I am no longer willing to cement myself into the wilderness.

I want to fly; I want to sing; I want to twirl and dance and breathe freely.

I want my failure to be mine; my victory to be mine.

I want to succeed.

I want to teach and learn.

I want to take back the power I have given you.

I have allowed you to discredit my brilliance; ignore my intelligence; Use my insecurities for your greedy gain.

I have given you permission unwillingly to control me.  

I have silently molded a monster drunk with arrogance.  I have taught you that you have a spell over me that I am well aware does not exist.

But it ends today on this very hour, very minute. 

I am consciously removing my stiff hesitant feet from this place and stepping into the darkness.  I have nothing to fear anymore.  I have righteousness and heavenly guidance on my side. 

You will not prevent me from succeeding and I will make it my business to leave you with no doubt about that!

The beautiful part is that I am not the only one, just the first.  After me there will be armies of those like me who will thrust into the darkness, defeating you.

Then………………..

What was once dark will become light!